Broken ones can restore their dignity in Christ
“the mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations, but is now disclosed to the Lord’s people.To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.” Col 1:26-27 NIV Bible
“Broken” was the general reality with which I started my journey with Christ. I struggled a lot with shame. In my first years of Christian life shame, due to my sins and my wounds of the past, was hindering my ability to engage in ministry. Once I participated in the inner healing conference, I started to feel that God was inviting to start certain ministry with my community. However, at the same time, I felt poorer than ever. Each topic covered at the conference pierced me and evoked a lot of pain. Shame surfaced. My still-existing brokenness was obvious.
Everyone who wanted to be prayed over was invited to come to the front by the leader of conference. More than fifty people came forth. I was standing almost at back of the crowd and had no expectations to be individually prayed over, as just a few team members were praying in the front. The main leader was leading a general prayer for all from the front, and there I was, just standing and drinking in the grace that was given for that moment. But, suddenly, one team member from the front unexpectedly approached me and said, “I feel God is urging me to pray for you. Can I?”
“Sure,” I replied.
He gently put his arm on my shoulder and started to pray silently over me. Suddenly he said, “Venta, Christ in you is the hope of glory…,” he repeated that a few times during the prayer and these words started to break shame’s power over my heart. I felt as if Jesus said to me, “I will cover all your shame by my glory.” That was so freeing. Just before the end of his intercession, the man said, “…and one more thing: I feel as if God wants to encourage you into some new ministry and He just wants to say to you: ‘it’s not about power, but about obedience.'”
For all of the conference, before prayer ministry time, I was almost quarreling with God against that inspiration, to have a part and initiate a ministry for the sexually and relationally broken in our hometown. I felt weaker than ever, as though I was the least suitable person for such a ministry, due to the depths of my still-aching voids. So, as you can assume, that was huge encouragement for me.
God gave me the best weapon against my shame and brokenness: to embrace the truth that He is the Source. The truth that all is about Him, not about me and my brokenness. My brokenness was not a problem for His restoring love. That was so life-giving. All about Him. A new direction in the midst of my doubts.
Christ covers our brokenness by His Glory, if we let Him in – what a promise! And obedience… My “yes” to Him after His encouragement, more than ten years ago now, was such a good choice and opened a new ministry and floods of mercy, not only for me and my healing journey, but for many around me as well.
How great is our God, who restores and gives hope to the hopeless! Jesus, YES, be our GLORY!